Mar 14 2009
Motherhoodlum….The last honorable man!
I do believe I have found the last honorable man on the planet, correct me if I’m wrong and you happen to have one, but before you tell me, are you 100% sure, I mean really sure?
I was out and about over the weekend, ran into a very old friend, we had been attracted to each other back in the day and apparently after 20 years we are still attracted to each other.
He, with a serious girlfriend, I with husband and children. But if you’ve read my blog, that means nothing to me. So after spending the day together, talking about where our lives have taken us, much laughing and flirting, we decided to take our conversation to a much more quieter place.
In talking with my dear old friend, alot of feelings of youth,recklessness and freedom arose for both of us. Wondering why we never took our relationship further as young adults. Now as older adults, the feelings of our youth flooded back into our brains…. and pants.
Why couldn’t 2 consenting adults, consent now? Married and serious girlfriend kept coming back into play. Feeling young and desirable if only for a few moments, what could be wrong with that?
After a few soft kisses and teenager like petting, things became increasingly clear that we still needed a much, much quieter place . A place where 2 old flames could reconnect and wonder ‘what if” things had been different. What if’s are a big waste of time.
Well, he told me. Something I never considered before(see how selfish I am)He told me as we were about to take it to the next level, that even though she would never find out, he would always know he had been unfaithful. Well all be g*% d#@! The last honorable man on the planet.
My pants nearly fell back on! Right then and there I knew we would never find out “what if’, we prompty stopped what we were doing and sat up and began talking about the “what if”. What if we would of continued and slept together, not that he didn’t want to, or that he couldn’t but something in his heart, yes I said heart, stopped him. He would always know and would never look at her the same because of what we did. She would never see the man she trusted to care for her heart, whole again, even if she never found out, HE would know. He would know he had broken her heart, even though she never would feel it. He would know he broke her trust, even though she would never know it. He would feel incomplete knowing he had done something to tarnish 20 years of trust.
Kudos for the last honorable man on the planet! I have taken a step back, for now, and just for a second, realized that it is possible for a man to think with his head, not his…you know what. WOW, may I run into many more of these men, because I may gain faith in mankind once again. Hopefully I will run into more of these men before I run into yours.
I’m impressed! However, if you were that tempted, maybe you should take a good look at your marriage.
Thanx Maxie, I was impressed too, and believe me I have taken a long hard look at my marriage and don’t want to be here any more, but with 2 children and no money and no where to go, I have decided to just be ‘happy’ here and do what I need to do elsewhere to fulfill the needs I need met. As immoral as it is, its whats gets me through the day.